What's happenning here?

just thinking...

OKAY.....I just saw my mark for DE midterm....62...while the average is 67...
I've received 60's before but this is very different and I am feeling kind of frustrated....

1) I studied VERY hard for this midterm....my reading week wasn't restful at all because I spent all the time studying for DE and thermo....and now it feels like the reading week studying amounted to nothing

2) I knew how do to almost every question on the midterm....when I was doing it...I had some trouble...but for the most part I knew all the methods....looking at the answers...it was because I made stupid mistakes RIGHT at the beginning and I think the TA's just took off every mark for the rest of the parts...I don't know yet...but I have a feeling it's because of that....

I think what frustrates me about 2)....is the fact that these stupid mistakes...there's no way to 'study' them away...it just happens....and that's why I'm afraid for the exam...I can study all I want...but what if I make the same stupid mistakes?

Sigh....I was reading getsj.com.... and it was talking about how sometimes we think that nothing is happenning in our life...or what we are doing is meaningless but God is trying to teach us something at the same time...(Moses...in Exodus)...and I just thought to myself...what is God trying to teach me from this experience? Should I trust more? Maybe I should....but I have a feeling it is more...I just don't know yet...

Very difficult...I have to study for a midterm on Monday...and it's the one I didn't study for during the reading week...I can only imagine how I'm going to do....

I have to keep trusting...no matter what